If there’s something I’m learning this time, is to be content with what God’s given me.
Sure I don’t have the perfect family (who does), or the perfect Christmas Eve. But i’m happy with what I get.
Tonight my family and I didn’t get together with my extended family, as we usually do every Christmas eve. I wasn’t happy about it, and it was a real pain for my brothers…but as pessimistic as it sounds, there was nothing I could do about it. Like I mentioned before, my family’s going through a rough time and it’ll just take time for it to be solved. God’s in control. Anyway, we did have an unusual Christmas eve dinner…it was homemade Burritos and Coke (well the Coke wasn’t homemade) Go figure 
Today at church, our pastor encouraged us to be different, to grow in grace and to continue striving to be more like Jesus. It’s my duty, it’s my calling as a Christian. It was really good to hear these things because I was very laid back about it these last few days. My circumstances have tempted me to give up and do nothing ’cause i’m too tired to fight and care. Anyway, this is what God’s doing in my life, this is the trial He’s carefully designed for me, and even though I sometimes feel like complaining and giving in, in Him I can find all strength and hope that everything will be alright…some day, some time.
I have worried too much about the future. As stupid as this might sound, I’ve wondered if someone in his right mind will ever marry me, knowing all these things in my background… I’ve wondered if i’ll ever get rid of this trialing situation. I’ve wondered if it’ll ever be over.
The truth is, that all that is in His hands, and there’s nothing I can do about it. And I’m totally fine with it. It’s great to know that He’s got my life all planned out, and I just have to follow Him. *sigh* it’s awesome not to have to figure it all out, ’cause He already did that for me 
In other news, today is year TWO of xanga. Two years of blogging, two years of …xanga. Happy Anniversary!
And
Merry Christmas to ya’ll!!!!
A new day has dawned 
“…for they shall cry unto Jehovah because of oppressors, and he will send them a saviour, and a defender, and he will deliver them.” (Isaiah 19:20)(ASV)-BibleGateway “…At the time that God has already decided, he will send Jesus Christ back again.”(1Timothy 6:15)(CEV)-BibleGateway JESUS DECLARED :”I have come in My Father’s nameand with His power…”(John 5:43)(AMP)-BibleGateway “I will come with the mighty acts of the Lord Jehovah…”(Psalm 71:16)(ASV)-BibleGateway
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Wow…We had burritos tonight, too! They were good, too.
And Merry Christmas to you!! I hope it’s joyous!!
Love you!!
it’s okay… my extended family isn’t here or anything either. no tree. no decorations. and i WORKED tonight until 11 pm. so yeah. my christmas eve wasn’t anything spetacular either. 🙂
i definately know how you feel about being worried about the future and being too tired by everything going on in life to care about spiritual things like you should…. i’m in the same place. i’ve been so apathetic lately, and i know i need to change that, but i just feel like i can’t right now. i dunno. i even feel ya on the husband thing. i’m fairly convinced that whoever does end up falling in love with me for who i am and i’ll i’ve been through will have to be clinically insane. well, either that or god will somehow have to make him crazy-in-love with me.
i’m glad you’re able to trust god through all the circumstances in your life. it’s something i need to start doing more of myself. so yeah, encouraging post. 🙂
i hope you have a great christmas!!!
Merry Christmas to you too! I hope you have a wonderful and Christ filled day. Always keep the sufficiency of His grace close to your heart and will give you peace beyond your understanding. God bless!
I have thought of you much this week. I hope you have known God’s sweet care and that His goodness has overwhelmed you.
I love you, sister…
Hi Kathy… it’s been a while since I’ve been to your site. I want to encourage you. My family background is no where near perfect. God is in control. I have not found the man for me yet but I know he’s out there because I am God’s child. I know that He has all things in control. I hope your new years was good!
In Him!
Ruth-Ann
I missed not seeing you on xanga… but was glad for it because I suspected it meant you were gone to Jarabacoa.