If there’s something I’m learning this time, is to be content with what God’s given me.
Sure I don’t have the perfect family (who does), or the perfect Christmas Eve. But i’m happy with what I get.
Tonight my family and I didn’t get together with my extended family, as we usually do every Christmas eve. I wasn’t happy about it, and it was a real pain for my brothers…but as pessimistic as it sounds, there was nothing I could do about it. Like I mentioned before, my family’s going through a rough time and it’ll just take time for it to be solved. God’s in control. Anyway, we did have an unusual Christmas eve dinner…it was homemade Burritos and Coke (well the Coke wasn’t homemade) Go figure
Today at church, our pastor encouraged us to be different, to grow in grace and to continue striving to be more like Jesus. It’s my duty, it’s my calling as a Christian. It was really good to hear these things because I was very laid back about it these last few days. My circumstances have tempted me to give up and do nothing ’cause i’m too tired to fight and care. Anyway, this is what God’s doing in my life, this is the trial He’s carefully designed for me, and even though I sometimes feel like complaining and giving in, in Him I can find all strength and hope that everything will be alright…some day, some time.
I have worried too much about the future. As stupid as this might sound, I’ve wondered if someone in his right mind will ever marry me, knowing all these things in my background… I’ve wondered if i’ll ever get rid of this trialing situation. I’ve wondered if it’ll ever be over.
The truth is, that all that is in His hands, and there’s nothing I can do about it. And I’m totally fine with it. It’s great to know that He’s got my life all planned out, and I just have to follow Him. *sigh* it’s awesome not to have to figure it all out, ’cause He already did that for me
In other news, today is year TWO of xanga. Two years of blogging, two years of …xanga. Happy Anniversary!
Merry Christmas to ya’ll!!!!